Danny Rabbit's Adventures.

11:28am: Bored and lonely
Hey kittens,

It's becoming more and more like this, ha. Home alone, watching some crap on the T.V., waiting for the night to come so I can be among other bodies, actually I haven't been close to a body in awhile. Want to here about my latest rejections? Ah yes, many many many. Drinking again, more like drowning huh? Well I'm a little bored, I think I'll stop drinking and down some cough syrup, that'll keep me high until I can get my real love bites. I'm thinking about doing something I haven't really done before, I'm thinking about hustling. I need the attention, the praise, the rush you feel from sex money. What's wrong Danny Rabbit? Why haven't you've been able to get laid? I think I need to change my game plan. Haha, why would anyone want to read this crap? Well here I go, on another fun adventure!

9:25am: Early morning entry, why the hell?
What the fuck am I doing up at this time? I keep having this amusing dream, this has to be the third one, they are all different accept this, in every one of them I'm trying to steal a bag of...weed. Haha, god out of all things? What does that mean? Is my subconscience telling me I need a quick fix, a good smoke? I haven't smoked weed in what seems like forever, I don't even really care for it. Ah who knows, I'm up right? Man I need some caffiene, my head feels heavy, like a hang-over...but I rarely have hang-overs anymore. I didn't even drink last night, I took nothing, and lookie here, I feel like shit.

This weekend was pretty nice, went to a couple parties and woke up in someone else's house, I didn't even know who they were, but a lot of people were there so it wasn't like that...but now man, I'm all by myself, which is alright. Actually I would kill for some attention right now.

11:18pm: Ah...rejection...fucking rejection.
What's your greatest fear? Can you imagine having to face that fucking fear over and over again? My greatest fucking fear is yes, rejection. I have been rejected at least...five times today. Now don't get me wrong, I'm a pretty nice looking guy, not to sound vain, heh, but I've been told quite a bit. It's my dirty little mouth, it seems I'm a little to bold, a little too nasty. I can't seem to feel loved, for one who tries so much. Yes I measure love by how many times I can bed someone, its as close as I can get, that brief sweet intimacy. Fills my soul, and right now, I feel horrible, and I'm so sober, so fucking sober...my friends boyfriend caught me in the bathroom breaking up a couple pills, snatched them and threw them in the toilet, I was about to...I made him pay for the drugs and well my best friend talked me into staying, saying shit like, 'fine go out and kill yourself', little bitch, I fell for it, waited till he fell asleep and left, got some coke, and well, I'm alright, not quite alright, not the same as I would be with X. But hey I'm flying baby. Its only this, I need my shit to feel normal, they don't seem to get it. Hey hey now, don't feel bad for me if you do, I don't feel bad for myself, I'm just pissy. Its not all that bad, I just want to feel good. I want some lovin and X knows how to love me, haha. I think you know what I mean, we all do what we have to do.

4:00pm: First entry
Hey jackals.

Man the first entry, hm, what to write about? My day? It's been quite calm, watching the fucking game show network, drinking a coke, just had some cough medicine, waiting for the dxm to kick in. Last time I had dxm I took it from the all to 'dangerous' CCC. I only had 6, a very modest amount thank you. Haha. I went to the Library and wandered around happily,interested in everything I saw, I tried to talk to a fellow, very sweet looking, looked about 40 though. He picked up a cook book and I asked him what he would cook for me, he just laughed and walked away. Ah rejected, no friend today. Well that was Monday. Today is Friday. I asked a boy, looked about 15, what he would do for 10 dollars, he said fuck you, I mean man, I didn't mean it like that! Or did I? Heh, I think I did, why can't he give a little time to a nice young lad like himself. I'm 18, not that old. I guess he doesn't like queers? No one does it seems. Well let them be boring, I don't give a shit. Got online today, went to Sublime Requim, posted a bit, talked to a sweet girl who calls herself, "Bloodrose904" She was fun to talk to, she gave me the idea to do this, she had a rather interesting one herself, a very sad girl though. I like her quite a bit. After that I made this thing and here I am writing. What shall I do today? See my friend Amy, maybe call up a friend for some fun phone sex. After that watch some T.V. and maybe smoke a joint before going to bed. I might get a couple friends over, have a threesome, now let me tell you I can only get laid by men, men who are my friends, but I get lucky once in awhile. Last night my bestfriend and his boyfriend invited me for a fun game. I'm guessing you can think up what took place. That doesn't happen too often. So why wouldn't I write about it here? Ha-ha.